Learning Something New

It's amazing how much you can learn about yourself by listening to people who know you talk about you.

No, I am not talking about the behind-your-back whispers that suddenly hush when you appear then someone makes a remark about the weather or some other safe topic. Neither am I talking about those people who know you juu juu or those people who's dose of daily bread must come from kissing asses and lying to keep friends or to protect feelings or some other vague shit.

I am talking of someone who you can be yourself around, that person who you find yourself telling all the crazy things you've done, that person who you would not hesitate to lock up in a room if you thought they might meet harm or hurt if they went...ok maybe not to that extreme but you get my drift. I am talking about that person you always miss and call when something, anything happens in your life.

I am blessed to have such a friend. He is arguably the coolest guy I have ever known, very mature in mannerism and speech and out poken too. He is that guy I hang around with in campo, the guy I would call up instead of taking an afternoon nap. He is interesting to be around and does not sugar coat anything, hurt feelings or bruised egos. He calls it like he sees it, I respect him alot for that. Of course we do not agree on most things, but hey, that's what makes it so lovely. We talk about everything under the sun, literally everything. We are alike in so many ways but yet all so different.

You must be thinking that we are in love, and probably that is true, but not in the erotic sense of the word, we connect at a higher level of utmost openness and acceptance, a mutual understanding and tolerance, an acme of friendship, if ever one exists.

I love him as I love my own brother, but he won't let me call him bro, hell he won't let anyone call him bro. Ati he is not our brother, and he would rather even be called 'dude' To him the term 'dude' is down there at the basement of derogatorium, together with those juicy names like honeypie, cuppycake, sweetheart, junior, simba(for dogs) etc

ok I seem to be losing direction here, ahem

Today we had a conversation on phone, he asked me how I was doing and I said I've never been better.

'Ni pombe?' I tell him my life has been so good lately mpaka I stopped drinking.

'Ok, so what is it? Money?' I made a joke about me needing a loan from him before we continue with the conversation and we both laughed it off.

Ever so persistent he asked, 'So you're getting some, eh?' I gave a kinda sorta answer, laughed it off and changed the subject. It's bad enough to be surviving a dry spell without someone mentioning it to me! We talked more then hung up.

I later started thinking about it, here was the guy who knew me best (I think) talking to me about myself and I failed to recognise the me in that. Am I that shallow?

Ok, I admit that for the most part all I ever talk about is booze and money and...argh, I refuse to torture myself with that word! All that shallow stuff (oh it hurt to admit that)But like everyone else, I mostly talk but don't walk, hehe ok who am I kidding.. For the most part at least, it's the big kid who can't really fight, but no one except him knows that and so no one dares challenge him? C'mon you know what I'm talking about! Right??

Sometimes we project an image that is not really us, or at least we don't want to believe it is us, to those around us, it is usually a different reflection for every other mirror...and when your favourite mirror looks back at you and you can't recognise yourself...you break the mirror damnit!! Hehe ok maybe you don't, you come out of your skin, you reflect the inner soul on the said mirror, if it's still blurry you gently wipe the mirror...


... and voila!!

Freestyle

I woke up to a reminder on my phone this morning. It had the name of the person I was supposed to spend the day today with, someone I hold dear to me. We met early last year during the SONU election period, he was campaigning for a rather powerful post in the students union of our campus. The SONU elections that year were carried out but we never got the results and subsequent campus level elections were cancelled. We were sent home for a month due to the tension and violence that had followed the whole election process. Much later fresh elections were conducted at campus level and the guy managed to get the post he was vying for.

When I first saw him, I saw love, and after all this time he's still the one *cue Shania Twain- You're Still The One* lol ok maybe not. I first saw him from the corner of my eye, he was staring at me as I was talking to some other dude who was trying to get my number while pretending he was campaigning for some chic. I still remember it like it was yesterday, he wore spects and looked oh so yummy in a geeky way, he carried his tall frame with such grace, such gentle strength that only a guy who is sure of himself can manage. He wore a fitting black jacket( that shielded me from the mean cold on numerous occassions) It's dark colour brought out his facial features like a white background on a dark subject, and even behind his spects his eyes looked magnificent, wow if I close my eyes I can sometimes conjure up that image in my mind. He just stood there looking at me, I loved the feeling. The nag eventually left and he finally got the opportunity to have all my attention to himself hehe
We were supposed to be meeting today for coffee or whatever, but one can usually tell when a relation goes on too long. The calls get shorter and wider apart, it's always one thing or the other keeping them too busy to make time for anything, a lie here and there.. That stuff gets old pretty quickly. So I changed my mind and stayed at home.


Juzi night I started feeling irritable on my throat and right ear region, worst feeling ever. Jana I woke up with a cold. Tonight am coughing like mad, I took 'Flu Gone' and some piritons. LOL at 'Flu Gone' some names can be very lame but hey, we were always told not to judge a book by its cover plus my mum swears by the green and yellow capsules. Well, lets wait and see I might just be here some weeks from now recommending it to my readers who've complained of nasty flu's, talk of names that speak for themselves haha

I haven't attended a wedding in ages, mental note to be more outgoing. That's where you meet the best guys, or rather you meet guys in their best behaviour.

For some weird reason I keep thinking of my facebook status update reading ''At a crazy pool party, some of this unassuming brothers be carrying Guiness World Records in their trunks''
Blame it on the drought.

I recommend that you all try ''Attracting'' things/states that you desire from the universe. I have evidence that it works.